I sleep here now

Hi… we decided we want to have Dreamwidth as A Space, again. The last 6 months were super intense, we realised that we're plural and are figuring out new things every day.

Right now, though, we are a blob who barely feels like a person at all, and have been for more than 2 weeks, and it's Exhausting. Anyway. We're… hi. We thought we'd make a post here where we sort through all our plurality bookmarks. Maybe that's next. And then… let's see.

Today was… good. I woke up feeling terrible, then had excessive breakfast with my flatmates before our monthly meeting. Both made things less terrible, somehow.

Later a flatmate and I had a look at her bike light, decided to go to dudebro bikeshop dude who is not our friend to get it replaced, and afterwards fixed my bike's brakes.

Then another flatmate re-shaved my hair, and now I am cute and have working brakes and am not feeling terrible, just a bit tense.

Today was a lot, in a good way.

I just returned from a bike adventure. Cycling is so new for me, and I enjoy how much farther I get even when I am a bit exhausted. Instead of walking around the block, I can get to places that look and feel different than home.

Today, however, was a high energy day, and I ended up 10 km from where I started, and got ice cream there. On the way back, I discovered a very very cute spot with a small pond/lake thingie and almost no people. There were frogs, too.

In the morning, I tried a free pilates lesson in a nearby park. It was my first contact with pilates and it was weird. It felt a bit like yoga purposefully trying not to be chill? Like "ok now you could stay here and breathe but honestly, let's just jump around a bit instead!"

It had a bunch of simple rhythmic movements, and that turned out to work well for me. I felt very, uh, connected to my body or whatever, sometimes. Big contrast to when yoga classes get too fast for me – that usually just stresses me out.

In between everything, I felt rather shitty, unlovable and Universally Hurtful. My adventure stopped that. Experiencing outside things is nice.