maunzikation | everything is shit (Reply)

I keep messing up with people who are important to me. And I'm sad. At least I feel things now? Some things at least. But maybe I always feel things and am simply afraid of admitting them to myself because that would mean admitting how much is going wrong in my relations to other people.

There is only one month of summer break left and I don't know how to get through this last year. It's going to be terrible, probably. I'm worried already. At least there will be distance learning days, which I much prefer to having to go there. I hope they still won't bother with video chats, that would be even worse than having to go there. Urgh.

Everyone around me is having great ideas, and I have nothing to contribute.

I'm trying to figure out what to do to make things less shit, but it's overwhelming and, uh, making me sad.