I sleep here now

I saw the prettiest water things, and went a lot of kilometers by bike, and went swimming twice, and it was good.

Imagine two cuties cycling down a long straight road, listening to music, including Powderpaint, from one of those round speaker things, hooked to a bike bag. It was fun, it felt like existing and like I should definitely do that more often.

And then!! We found a very pretty water, skinny dipped, let the warm air dry us and chillaxed a bit. ( Click here for some creepy male gaze though )

After that, we met friends at a different lake, and that one was full of people and a bit less pretty, but is a popular nudist spot so the atmosphere was much nicer. Mostly no staring, just one person going "did you see??" to their friend after I passed them on my way to the pee spot. Not sure if they were just referring to my top surgery scars or noticing more wholistically how hella trans I am, either way, I gave them a mean laugh just to let them know I'd heard.

Aaand I spent some time alone in the water with a kid friend / friends' kid, and I rly like that I am getting more relaxed around them. We splashed some water at each other and then they wanted me to tow them back to land as a compromise because they wanted to stay in and I didn't. Their floater made that very easy, luckily, and all of it was a lot of fun.

Then, on my way back, I totally managed to get my bike up the train's steps, and down too, and I am so proud. Not just for that, but also for having a genuinely nice day??

Also, lots of dragonflies.

Today was a lot, in a good way.

I just returned from a bike adventure. Cycling is so new for me, and I enjoy how much farther I get even when I am a bit exhausted. Instead of walking around the block, I can get to places that look and feel different than home.

Today, however, was a high energy day, and I ended up 10 km from where I started, and got ice cream there. On the way back, I discovered a very very cute spot with a small pond/lake thingie and almost no people. There were frogs, too.

In the morning, I tried a free pilates lesson in a nearby park. It was my first contact with pilates and it was weird. It felt a bit like yoga purposefully trying not to be chill? Like "ok now you could stay here and breathe but honestly, let's just jump around a bit instead!"

It had a bunch of simple rhythmic movements, and that turned out to work well for me. I felt very, uh, connected to my body or whatever, sometimes. Big contrast to when yoga classes get too fast for me – that usually just stresses me out.

In between everything, I felt rather shitty, unlovable and Universally Hurtful. My adventure stopped that. Experiencing outside things is nice.